A Journey of Understanding Trauma and Healing my Inner Child
“Would you like to go out for a bite?” I asked my husband. It had been a long week. I was tired.
“If you like,” he responded with a smile. (My husband does like a beer now and again.) Continue reading “Childhood emotional neglect hurts!”
He took the new Christmas bottle from my dresser and shook it violently. He then carefully placed it at the bottom of my bed next to my feet. “Don’t you dare move or it will blow up,” he threatened, making sure my parents hadn’t heard him. “It’s a bomb and if you move it will go off and blow you to pieces,” he added, with such meaning and hate in his voice.— My Courage to Tell
This is pretty important. I am hopeful that with the new study, there will finally be a focus on sibling bullying.
This study was a longitudinal study of 14,000 children at 18 weeks pregnancy — who would be followed until they were 24. The study would look at mental health, depression, anxiety, self-harm and psychotic disorders. Continue reading “Sibling Bullying – ignored but harmful!”
More and more people want to know about Complex PTSD. I am not a medical professional, therapist or doctor. I am writing what I’ve learned and researched.
…the symptoms of PTSD do not really seem to completely describe the psychological harm, emotional problems, and changes in how people view themselves and the world following chronic traumatic exposure.
Therefore, some mental health professionals believe that we should distinguish between the type of PTSD that develops from chronic, long-lasting traumatic events, and the type of PTSD that results from short-lived events. —verywellmind.com
To start, there is a lot of overlap with PTSD vs C-PTSD. I will try and explain the differences in what I’ve researched. Continue reading “Complex PTSD is different than PTSD”
So, this blog post is long overdue. I have often tweeted about scapegoating, but I think it warrants a blog post since so many people that I’ve connected with are fellow “goats”.
The story comes from the Bible. In the Old Testament, Leviticus 16 there is a goat that was mortally sacrificed, and another that was cast to the wilderness. This goat was to carry all the sins of his tribe. The goat was chosen to carry away the “sins of man” so it would release all the tribe members of their guilt. Continue reading “Are you the scapegoat in your family?”
So, I just finished watching the documentary At the Heart of Gold, about the gymnastics scandal and sexual abuse from predator Larry Nassar.
I’m pissed!
Why shouldn’t I be? This man is in one word: evil. No conscience. No guilt. No remorse. Thank GOD Judge Rosemarie Aquilina was the judge for this case. She validated every one of the victims’ pain. In his letter, the predator Larry wrote, “I was a good doctor because my treatments worked. Those patients that are now speaking out were the same ones that praised and came back over and over and referred family and friends to see me.” Continue reading ““Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. The media is sensationalizing this.””
I am sitting having my coffee listening to my Reiki healing music. The song I am listening to is called, Divine Mother. I am in my living room and have just fed my dogs. Outside the snow is gently falling down. Mystical. I am thinking back to the last three years. It has been almost three years since my mother stonewalled me. Silence. Continue reading “Divine Mother | Secrets”
We accept the love we think we deserve. —Stephen Chbosky
I have recently pondered a very sad memory. My son played hockey for years.
I am the type of person to let people be. I am a very quiet person, and I trust a few. I am an observer. One time I was at the rink. There was a mother with her little 3-year-old child. The mother was very overweight, loud and opinionated. Continue reading “Getting beyond the lies. You are worthy.”
I haven’t written a blog post on attachment and how important it is. I have written about the “Attachment Theory” in my book, My Courage to Tell.
It’s an important piece of study. And probably the most important thing that we need to know. Why? A child needs to attach to feel secure. The less attachment, the more insecure a child feels. Continue reading “The Heroes | The Ones that Help the Children”
If you are reading this, you may be interested in what CD and ODD are. First I want to very clear; I do not know if anyone in my family has a “disorder”. There has not been a diagnosis and I am not a psychologist or psychiatrist who can make these determinations.
Do I have my own suppositions? Yes. I certainly do. And I do not talk about those publically. I do talk about concerning behaviours that I have witnessed. And I leave each individual to make their own determination. We are all entitled to our own opinions. Continue reading “What is Conduct Disorder and Oppositional Defiant Disorder?”
As most of you know from following me and my blog, I have been dealing with C-PTSD, anxiety and panic attacks as a result of dealing with old buried trauma from my childhood. I am working through deep-rooted trauma from years ago.
So along with that, I need to realize that there are many changes going on in my life. When things go wrong, I start to feel anxiety and panic. Continue reading “Trauma from Childhood: It’s a Slow Process”
